Better Days

I am sooo loving this song right now:

Silver gray hair
Neatly combed in place
There were four generations
Of love on her face
She was so wise
No surprise passed her eyes
She's seen it all

I was a child, oh
About three or four
All day I'd ask questions
At night I'd ask more
But whenever, she never
Would ever turn me away
No, no oh woah
I'd say how can I be sure
What is right or wrong
And why does
What I want
Always take so long
Please tell me
Where does God live
And why won't
He talk to me
I'd say Grandma
What is love
Will I ever find out
Why are we so poor
What is life about
I wanna know the answers
Before I fall off to sleep
Woah ho woah ho

She saw the smile
As she tucked me in
Then she pulled up that
Old rockin' chair once again
But tonight she was
Slightly, remarkably
Different somehow
Slowly she rocked
Lookin' half asleep
Grandma yawned
As she stretched
Then she started to speak
What she told me
Would mould me and hold me
Together inside
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

She said all the things you ask
You will know someday
But you have got to live
In a patient way
God put us here by fate
And by fate that means
Better days

She said, child we are all
Moons in the dark of night
Ain't no mornings gonna come
Till the time is right
Can't get no better days lest
You make it through the night
You gotta make it
Through the night
Yes you do
You can't get to no
Better days
Unless you make it
Through the night (baby)
Oh ho, you will see
Those better days
But you gotta be patient
Be patient, oh baby
Be patient

Later that year at
The turn of spring
Heaven sent angels down
And gave Grandma her wings
Now, she's flyin'
And slidin', and glidin'
In better days
And although
I'm all grown up
I still get confused
I stumble through the dark
Getting bumped and bruised
When night gets in my way
I could still hear
My Grandma say
I can hear her say
I can hear her sayin'

You can't get to no
Better days
Unless you make it
Through the night (baby)
Oh ho, you will see
Those better days
But you gotta be patient
Child, do you hear me, yeah
Well, well, well, well
You can't get to no, no
Better days
Unless you make it
You got to make it
You got to make it
Through the night
Oh Grandma, oh Grandma
Do you see me now, lady
Oh oh oh oh oh

Be patient. One of the seven virtues we have to imbibe in our quest to achieve whatever dreams and goals we may have. I look at the overall picture of my life and each facet resonates the same thing --- that I be patient and wait for that day. It's hard actually, because knowing how impatient I am, I always have a problem when it comes to waiting. I hate waiting, I hate being late. I make things happen especially when it comes to work but of course you get to realize that you can only do so much and the rest you have to wait it out. But one good thing I have learned is knowing when to stop and stay put. The point of being in a state of steadiness that you can actually see things passing you by. The other day was a highlight in its own right and again, maybe the lifetime has been consumed already. I won't allow myself to become attached to someone and then what? It shouldn't be a one way street; I need to reverse my gear and go back again. There's nowhere to go if what's in front of you is a dead end right?

I wanted to go out last night and catch up with a dear friend but I was too tired to go back to Makati again. I wanted to "celebrate" happiness in what little way possible. Happiness being overrated, what I have isn't something major but damn, it does feel great to be in a highschool mode! He was pulling my leg (I almost fell for his joke!) and was being playful and pilyo --- katuwa to see someone with his profile do things that only boys would do. I did get an invite though, surprisingly and I asked why. Why not? Life, live it. Agree. Quite interesting, especially when you think of the fact that he goes sailing during weekends. Sooo different from the way I live my life --- and maybe that could be a happy problem. In any case, I hope to see him again here in Manila soon...or maybe in Hong Kong in a few weeks' time.

Patience...6 more weeks to go!!! I sooo need a holiday!